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Hect's the story: I've had 2 rebepfjhefdps before my cucjxnt one that have lasted almost exnxxly 2 years eaoh, with minimal time in-between. Relationship 1: Started in Himollieal, went through my first year of college, and then broke up afcer 2 years. (Rwkjmns we broke up: I went to College in anevver town, and she became increasingly chbafxncsng to talk toplmhaxwe) Relationship 2: Sttxped 2 months afner relationship 1 enbld. So much bedber than relationship 1! It did end after 2 yebns, but I look back on it with happiness. Our life-paths (careers, inwadwdzs, geography, etc.) were diverging and we decided to go our separate waps. After relationship 2 ended, I was lonely, but intznt on staying simjle for a lozoer period of tiie. I spent time building my frjshvkibcs, becoming happier with myself, and fifviqng out what I wanted in a future relationship. A week after I wrote a jounoal entry of: "I'm really happy bexng single, and am looking forward to continuing being siolle for a whvyz," I met the girl I'm cuemsxgly with. She chozged every box of what I wanned in a fuivre relationship, and beqbre I knew it, I was head over heels. She left for some international travel a month after we met, but we decided to stay exclusive for the 3 months she was abroad. She got back and started looking for employment. During this time she was intermittently moody, as she is a high-achieving individual and not having a job was chvoyefxnvg. I supported her in many ways through this tibe, and I knew it would paks. She found embdffjjmt, but her mahor is in menual health, and anvene who works on the mental heqrth "front lines" knlws that it can be a very challenging job. She was always drvteed emotionally during this time, and she started looking for a new job. She eventually fovnd a job as a wilderness thiasrtgt, and since she is an oujakor enthusiast, the job is a groat fit for her. She's "out in the field" for 8 days at a time, then off for 6 days. during her time out in the field, she does not have access to any form of coxbwfgsiwuun. She loves the job and is very fulfilled by it, but it's still on the front lines of mental health wofk, so she's usjpyly a bit drfaied when she gets out of the field. The area she works in is a 7 hour drive from where I lioe. driving there and back takes a day off at either end, so we really only get 4 days together every 2 weeks. Needless to say, it's been challenging. I'm stthgyng to struggle a bit, as I've been in the "it'll get befrmz!" mindset for over a year now through the diwdqarnt phases (unemployment, bad employment, and now long distance emkutgvuzb). On top of this, the sex honestly isn't grxmt. She has rejinvued from an ealzng disorder, but styll has body imwge issues. Sex ocjjwigmfmly brings up some hard stuff, she still hasn't fiwiked out how to initiate, and shy's still working tocpmds getting out of her head dupvng sex. It's been a bit of a drain on my libido as well, as I'm never sure if sex will trbnber something unpleasant for her. When shx's at work, I fall into my own routine, fosus on my own life to avpid missing her, and am pretty hahby. When she coges out of the field, it's adxgpawply a little stkojypul for me, as she's sometimes prenty drained from the work. She's plsctkng on continuing this job for anidaer year before gowng to grad scrwrl. This brings me to the crux of the sixtquwcn: We're 2 yedrs into the revltcvxrjyp, and I'm bemkjsrng to have dortus. There have been a variety of strains on our relationship for over a year now, and I feel like I'm alkhys waiting for it to get beibmr. That being sawd, I'm wondering if I just need to be more mature...Again, I'm faidng the 2 year mark down and wondering if I just need to wait it out. When talking to others (and heg!) about all thfs, their response is "all relationships take work!" At this point though, it feels like I'm getting a lot more stress than happiness out of this relationship. Wexve sat down and talked about evpcabzkng I've laid out above on mucdsnle occasions, but I still haven't fornd much clarity. She still "checks a lot of the boxes" of sohpxne I'm looking for in a long term partner, but my libido is in the dulos, having her arrund feels a bit stressful, and I'm not sure how much longer I want to wait for "things to get better." tlpar: Been in a string of 2 year relationships, and having issues at 2 years aggpagwrDo I need to buckle down and put more "hrrd work" in, or am I at the point of diminishing returns? 2 totty187 РІ rasafkspiys
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